Confessions of a Daughterless Mother
One wife and mother's take on life with three boys: noise, chaos, worry, smiles and a whole lotta love.
The Other Side of Goodbye

I cried all the way home. It was a five hour drive. And I cried all. the. way. home. Not hysterically sobbing, more weeping … with some hysterics sprinkled in. I remember the weight of his absence so clearly. I rememeber the suffocating heat of his dorm room before we left. I remember the sound […]

Posted: 09/23/19 6:27 PM
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Incomplete Happiness

His little newborn legs puckered up underneath his diapered bottom as the bouncy chair vibrated, ensuring he slept just a little longer. In his red velvet shorts and suspenders he was ready to make his debut at Daddy’s work Christmas party, just three weeks old.  I soaked his little white shirt with my tears simply […]

Posted: 09/18/19 2:00 PM
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Wish Granted

I was four. Maybe five? Small enough I fit on my Great Aunt Dorothy’s lap like a bluebird in her nest.

Posted: 07/15/19 5:38 AM
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On Snowplows

I dragged his bag behind me. The noise from the wheels rolling through the stray rocks in the parking lot grinding like gentle background music. I dipped my head as I pulled open the high school door, pulling my hat down over my eyes. If I was a good mom I wouldn’t be bringing him […]

Posted: 04/23/19 4:40 PM
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What’s the Worst That Can Happen?

I remember my first steps into the halls of my high school — I was hesitant, unsure. I remember scanning the sea of people looking for a friendly face and not finding one. I remember what I wore when I took the ACT (I also remember not knowing–at all–what the ACT actually was). I remember […]

Posted: 04/12/19 3:21 PM
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Ask me Why …

I was a good-enough student in high school–I had a 3.0 something. If I knew exactly what it was I would share — but I really only know it was over a 3.0 because I was a card holding member of the 3.0 Club and was given a free small french fry at Wendy’s for […]

Posted: 02/20/19 6:43 PM
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